Gotta have faith!

I took an extra long walk today, since I forgot to take one yesterday, and the day before. I think I made up for yesterday, but I'll need to take another long one tomorrow to be totally caught up.

While I was walking, I was thinking, about faith. A superstition of mine was that if I pray for anything, I'll get it in an evil-genie fashion that'll make me wish I hadn't asked. Typically, I've considered this in the sense of 'my guardian angel is really a demon' or something along those lines, but today I was considering it in the sense of 'what is this entity trying to teach me?'

It's trying to teach me to have faith. Prayer is the opposite of faith -- you don't trust what god has in store for you, so you ask for a favor. Do you think the omniscient doesn't know what your situation is, and has to be reminded? Do you think he doesn't care about your welfare, and won't take care of you unless you plead?

No, the way to show faith in god isn't to treat him like a fallible authority figure that you can bribe or trick into helping you. It's to pretend that he doesn't exist, but with the surety that everything will turn out all right in the end, or at least for the best.

*sigh*

Okay, most of the results are in from Monday's checkup, and... I'm not significantly less healthy than last time I checked. There were several very scary tests involved, so I'm glad for that. I still have an 0.3% risk of heart disease within the next 5 years, which is too high for comfort, but I know what I need to do to lower that -- get possessed by a demon with higher willpower than I have, that for some reason wants to keep me healthy.

And I never did come down with a cold, so god only knows why I'm apparently running a fever. Although 99.7 is within the range the doctor was willing to chalk up to unusual body temperature.