In(s)ane Rambling
Sep. 22nd, 2004 04:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
terryclothIf you're not angry, then you're just stupid, you don't care.
How else could you react, when you know something's so unfair?
That's Ani DiFranco's take on it, anyway. I can't really take that attitude. I just don't care strongly enough about being virtuous to be angry about people who aren't.
Which makes me one of the people that lets governments get away with murder, and sociopaths get away with being jerks. I guess. Although it's really... it's something that I see as a virtue. I don't trust peoples' judgement enough to take drastic action, especially not when it's drastic action designed to hurt someone.
Hey it's fine, walk down the line, see the rain, a cold trade for warm sunshine.
You my friend I will defend, and if we change, well I love you anyway.
That one's Alice in Chains. It's... one aspect of how I feel about this. Things change, but if you're really connected to something, or someone, or some place, it doesn't really matter.
There was a political cartoon about 9/11, a few months after the event, which was just captioned 'Night and Day', comparing the state of the world before and after. The world didn't change, though. The country changed.
It's not a change I like, or want to make, but if it really comes down to it I *would* change, before I'd leave, or rebel. If the Republicans sabotaged the elections and swept every race, ushering in a new age of darkness, I'd probably join them.
I've got no far horizons, I don't wish upon a star.
They don't think that I listen, but I know who they are.
And I... I don't mind.
That's Genesis, and probably my favorite of all of them. I love that song. -.-
I don't want responsibility. I don't *like* responsibility, when I get it. And I can't have power without feeling responsible. So I don't want power. I just want...
Online, on furry MUCKs, and offline at furry meets, I say I'm a ferret, or a squirrel, or maybe one of several other things, but that's just not... that's just because those are normal things to be. The common factor that *almost* every character I've used as an online persona's had is shapeshifting... and when you look at the whole 'would you like to be furry in real life?' question, my answer's always 'No, I'd like to be able to turn into an animal. And back.' Back is very important.
You think that's cool? Whatever, dude.
Um, that's Josie and the Pussycats. }:)
The problem with trying to be a shapeshifter, to fit in with any group, is that generally, groups aren't made up of shapeshifters. It's inherently self-defeating. Or, you could look at that as a safety valve that keeps you from getting trapped.
Anyway, I have to admit that while that may be an ideal -- total passivity, shapeshifting to fit any group -- it's not what I am. There are things I can't let go of, and I'm not sure whether I should try to let go of everything and just evaporate, or hold on tight and try to find more to build up next to them, and assemble some sort of identity-fort that I could hide under. So I won't try to do either.
I'll just end with a little Jewel,
I try to tell myself it'll all be alright,
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight.
How else could you react, when you know something's so unfair?
That's Ani DiFranco's take on it, anyway. I can't really take that attitude. I just don't care strongly enough about being virtuous to be angry about people who aren't.
Which makes me one of the people that lets governments get away with murder, and sociopaths get away with being jerks. I guess. Although it's really... it's something that I see as a virtue. I don't trust peoples' judgement enough to take drastic action, especially not when it's drastic action designed to hurt someone.
Hey it's fine, walk down the line, see the rain, a cold trade for warm sunshine.
You my friend I will defend, and if we change, well I love you anyway.
That one's Alice in Chains. It's... one aspect of how I feel about this. Things change, but if you're really connected to something, or someone, or some place, it doesn't really matter.
There was a political cartoon about 9/11, a few months after the event, which was just captioned 'Night and Day', comparing the state of the world before and after. The world didn't change, though. The country changed.
It's not a change I like, or want to make, but if it really comes down to it I *would* change, before I'd leave, or rebel. If the Republicans sabotaged the elections and swept every race, ushering in a new age of darkness, I'd probably join them.
I've got no far horizons, I don't wish upon a star.
They don't think that I listen, but I know who they are.
And I... I don't mind.
That's Genesis, and probably my favorite of all of them. I love that song. -.-
I don't want responsibility. I don't *like* responsibility, when I get it. And I can't have power without feeling responsible. So I don't want power. I just want...
Online, on furry MUCKs, and offline at furry meets, I say I'm a ferret, or a squirrel, or maybe one of several other things, but that's just not... that's just because those are normal things to be. The common factor that *almost* every character I've used as an online persona's had is shapeshifting... and when you look at the whole 'would you like to be furry in real life?' question, my answer's always 'No, I'd like to be able to turn into an animal. And back.' Back is very important.
You think that's cool? Whatever, dude.
Um, that's Josie and the Pussycats. }:)
The problem with trying to be a shapeshifter, to fit in with any group, is that generally, groups aren't made up of shapeshifters. It's inherently self-defeating. Or, you could look at that as a safety valve that keeps you from getting trapped.
Anyway, I have to admit that while that may be an ideal -- total passivity, shapeshifting to fit any group -- it's not what I am. There are things I can't let go of, and I'm not sure whether I should try to let go of everything and just evaporate, or hold on tight and try to find more to build up next to them, and assemble some sort of identity-fort that I could hide under. So I won't try to do either.
I'll just end with a little Jewel,
I try to tell myself it'll all be alright,
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight.
