Everything's unstable
Mar. 8th, 2004 01:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
terryclothMy life has been going well, by any normal measure. I've got money, a job, an apartment, something resembling a social life (well, okay, that part is only 'going' instead of 'going well'), some hobbies, and no major medical problems.
What I *want* is to be able to not think about any of those things, though -- for them just to work on their own without my input. It's hard for me to enjoy downtime while things are hanging over my head, and then hard for me to face a week when even the weekend just wasn't that relaxing.
But things *aren't* like that, and I *do* have to worry, and even occasionally take action. I usually complain about it here.
Walking around this morning, I was thinking that I was feeling kind of bored with all the routine crap that seems to waste 90% of my time, and wanted to... change the channel. Unfortunately, that isn't really an option -- or rather, it's EVEN MORE hassle that just going on like things are, which means I won't do it.
Blah.
What I *want* is to be able to not think about any of those things, though -- for them just to work on their own without my input. It's hard for me to enjoy downtime while things are hanging over my head, and then hard for me to face a week when even the weekend just wasn't that relaxing.
But things *aren't* like that, and I *do* have to worry, and even occasionally take action. I usually complain about it here.
Walking around this morning, I was thinking that I was feeling kind of bored with all the routine crap that seems to waste 90% of my time, and wanted to... change the channel. Unfortunately, that isn't really an option -- or rather, it's EVEN MORE hassle that just going on like things are, which means I won't do it.
Blah.
