Scattered brains

Yesterday, I was thinking of making one of those 'lj trading cards', but it just didn't seem worth the effort. Maybe if it filled in the fields automatically, or alternatively, if you could, say, print out the cards and use them to contact people while offline. Or if there was a game to play with them, like Magic the Gathering.

No, I will not make an MtG expansion for lj, even if anyone else is still playing that game. User-made MtG expansions almost always suck. Of course, if anyone wants to play using Apprentice... well... I guess I've got enough contact info listed to get a message to me, if I'm online and NOT AT WORK (that means 'it's night or a weekend'), and I'm usually up for (/desperate for) a game.

Finally, shadesong was talking about BDSM, at length, so let me just say:
B: Yawn.
D: Grrr. Die.
M: Creepy.
S: [innocentwhistle]

That is all. You may go.

Confession

I'm a whistler. I'm whistling right now. And I think I can whistle in tune. I probably need to tape myself whistling to defuse that notion like I did with the 'I can sing' one.

Spirituality

My spirit is a pathetic wretch imprisoned in a cage of habit and rules and fear, illuminated by a spotlight that only serves to accentuate the darkness surrounding it.

My other spirit is a cruel trickster that circles in the darkness, occasionally coming close enough to whisper through the bars of the cage, to give orders, or insults, or ideas.

As far as I can tell, the first is me and the second is my conscience, but I could have that backwards. Or maybe they switch off.... it's hard to tell which is 'me' at any given time since they really both are all the time.

One of them is focused and determined, and makes sure I do what needs to be done, and I don't know which. But it keeps me going after I've given up all hope.

One of them is sociable and outgoing, and kind, and gentle, and I don't know which. But I can still delight in simply being happy, most of the time.

And one of them occasionally tries to kill me, and I don't know which. It never actually gets close, don't worry.

Sometimes I wonder if there's any actual basis to this feeling of dichotomy, or if it's just another fantasy. Most of the time I'd rather just feel all mysterious and complex and accept it at face value, though.